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Sunny Soh
（Chairman)
James Weng
(Advisor)
Raja
(Secretary/Treasurer)
Nigel Ng
(Programme Coordinator)
Serene Seng
(Programme Coordinator)
Leong Jiamin
(Publicity I/C)
Estelle
(Publicity I/C)
Desiree Loo (Logistics I/C)
Sabrina (Logistics I/C)
Friday, September 5, 2008
Have you ever felt that you just cant do a certain something in life. Something that your friends can do it somehow but u cant. OR you are just lazy and cant be bothered- You Give Up. Well. I do. In the subject MATHS.I try in the recent weeks to buck up on it. Because promos are coming and my A level H1 Math exam is this year. I go for tuition, i try doing stuff in maths class. I ask as I want to learn and improve. But till now, my efforts seems futile. It seems like nobody understand the situation im in. I've been scoring zeros. Meaning that i have totally ZERO knowledge about H1 math. And i mean it. I feel bad. All I want now is to reach for an E grade(minimum pass) but no matter how i stretch my hand, the goal seems so so so far away. My hand was already tired by then.
I went for tution today. It was no use. Just like the previous tution sessions. Whatever the tuition teacher taught, im totally blurred out. I dont understand. A little maybe, but when it comes to doing questions... ... ... I cant do it. Even the basics one. I am tired. I wana give up. Math seems way out of my league. However i try to understand it, it just cannot get into my head. I was feeling depressed when i went out. I escaped tuition halfway btw. =="
I tried calling my best friend. She didnt pick up. I tried calling my dad. He didnt pick up. Never mind. Suddenly, i thought of praying to my father in heaven. And i did. It relieve me of the sadness and burden in my heart. Why didnt i think of it? The first person you can ALWAYS turn to is your father in heaven. After that, i automatically switch my mp3 to christian songs. Before that i was listening to a japanese emotional song. haha. I then listen to the song Voice of truth.
Oh,what I would do to have
the kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown
Where Jesus is, And he's holding out his hand
But the waves are calling out my name
and they laugh at me Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
time and time again
"Boy, you'll never win, you'll never win."
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
I know there are consequences to sin. I have been sleeping in math lesson throughout last year. This year as well. What right do i have to ask GOD to grant me good grades, when even till now i put in minimal effort. BUT. I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE. I want to do the right thing starting from now. I want to work harder than i never did before. And i know im not alone. My Father in heaven is with me, so are my friends and my family. I will do it and leave the rest to GOD. Of course, it is not going to be easy. But i have my family and friends to lean on. I love u people(: And i know. You love me too. Oh. If you are thinking whose the one who post this. You should know by the long paragraphs of words. haha!
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